Monday, November 8, 2010

Back in Fighting Position


My body has decided to cooperate after all. Yesterday I was blessed with The Curse. Today's ultrasound showed further shrinkage of the suspected endometriomas (now 2.7 and 1.2 cm). The third is likely masquerading as an antral follicle, which are numbered at nine. Stims begin TOMORROW!

In other good news, my brother finally arrived yesterday, a month later than planned, and will be staying with us for the near future. This is a mutually beneficial situation, as he is now able to study away from the hostile environment of our parents' house and I no longer have to stress about finding child care on short notice when I have to go to the clinic. Plus he is awesome with the kids!

So tomorrow: the protocol this time around is 5 units Lupron and 150 IU Menopur in the morning and 300 IU Follistim in the evening. That's double the Menopur and triple the Follistim I started out on last cycle. I'm hopeful the higher doses will improve my chances, but of course I have no idea how the endometriomas will affect things.

My greatest fear is that this will end badly and the hope that has sustained me these last few years will die a sudden and horrible death. I'm not sure how to live with that. Because of all the drama going into this cycle and the fact that it may be the last, it's been hard to feel ready. Frankly, I'm shocked that I have any fight left in me at all at this point. I guess it just goes to show how desperately I want this. So I'm hoping very hard that this will be our last cycle because it works and not because financial or physical constraints prevent any further attempts.

10 comments:

Teresa said...

Sounds like great news! Somehow we always find a way to sit back up and fight.

landert said...

Yay, it's about time for some good news! Good luck with everything!

Andrea Holley said...

Sending prayers your way!

jrs said...

wonderful news! glad your brother will be around to help out.
watch who you're pointing that machine gun at. great picture :)

Anonymous said...

That's a great photo ;) And good luck--fingers crossed for you!

Lori said...

SO glad to catch this update!!!!!!!!! I've been praying that your body would just cooperate for you and give you some peace!!!!! Hooray!!!!!
xoxoxo

Cherbear said...

This is incredible! Congrats on stims starting today! I can't wait to read about how your body responds. Praying it all goes perfectly!

Nick and Kristi said...

Girlie...I hope this is it for you to:) Man you have been through so much and lately have gotten such crappy news...So hopefully this first bit of positive news will be on of many things to come in the near future:))))

Kathleen said...

congrats and also i read your wish on 11/11. i'm wishing so badly that it comes true for you. hope your ranibow and mine are just around the corner

Angie said...

Annie, you are always on my mind and I pray that this will be your last cycle for positive reasons!!!