Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Bust a Move

Mei-mei seems to be very comfortable right where she is.  Another 10 out of 10 on testing today, after which I stripped for another stripping of the membranes.  Thankfully it wasn't so painful this time, but my cervix remains stuck at about 1 or 2 centimeters.  At least it seems to be softening and shortening, but my uterus hasn't even been "irritable" lately.  There are still no contractions to speak of.  Whenever anyone asks how I am doing, I say I am feeling fantastic.  But I don't want to feel fantastic!  I want to be having contractions.  Lots of them.  I'm getting more desperate by the hour.

In addition to the fatigue of constantly worrying whether Mei-mei will make it out alive, there are two other reasons why this is wearing on me so much.  One is that my mother-in-law has to leave soon and I'm really hoping baby comes before she leaves. It's so helpful not having to worry about the kids. I suppose I'll manage alright even without help if the birth goes smoothly, but if it doesn't I could be in trouble.

Secondly, I do NOT wish to be induced.  I really thought things would happen on their own last week, but here I sit still pregnant.  I am certainly not complaining about being pregnant - not after all I've been through to get here!  But it will end (hopefully very happily!) and when it does, it would be very nice to recover quickly so I can just enjoy!

I just need my good luck to continue through birth, recovery, and far beyond!  I've been having such an incredible streak of good luck ever since last November!  Thanks Switch Flipper!

- This one day we was out walking like always, and then, just like that, somebody turned off the rain, and the sun come out. (Forrest Gump)


Meim said...

It's a little bit creepy how similar our lives are right now. LOL

Nikki said...

Oh my...I really hope that things start to progress quickly for you. I understand how frustrating it can be, and it makes sense that you want all the help you can get when the little one shows up.

I'm praying for you and hoping that everything will just magically take off today or tomorrow and you can avoid the induction or C-section and have the birth you want so you can hold your little girl.

Anonymous said...

Man! I keep checking to see if there is any baby news but it sounds like she is just comfey! I hope to hear of her uneventful arrival soon!!

Jana said...

mei mei--it is time to "bust a move". what are you waiting for?