Friday, October 23, 2009

Something's Always Wrong

Now that I'm cleared to try injectable fertility meds, I'm anxious to get started. I just need a cyst-free ovary! I've had pain, though, and gone on the pill. Thought I'd better get it checked out, so today was the first time I've been to my new gyno since the initial consult. I was pleased that my situation was handled expeditiously, in stark contrast to how things were managed at the last office. Got the exam, ultrasound, results, and recommendation all in less than an hour's time.

I had hope going in because there has been almost no pain at all for three days. A good sign! And the doctor said he couldn't feel anything amiss. Another good sign! Then came the just-in-case ultrasound and hope was crushed once again. Surprise! Another cyst - this one a whopping 6 cm, and it looks like it may have sprung a leak. The doctor said to stay on the pill continuously for another 6 weeks and then we'll check on it.

Now I'm a nervous, paranoid wreck. What if it twists or ruptures? I don't dare to go running, which is a serious loss because the endorphin high is all that keeps me going sometimes. And being on the pill just KILLS me. How can this nightmare ever end happily when we so rarely even get a try at pregnancy? Also, I'm sorry to admit that being in pain so much of the time makes it really hard to be a nice person.

In order to ease my pain (and his) hubby recently purchased the Hitachi Magic Wand Massager and it is gooood. I put it on my belly and it temporarily kills the pain. 

3 comments:

Emily said...

Annie- I wanted to thank you for your comment on my Stepping Stones site and it does seem we have quite a bit in common. I look forward to getting to know you better and delving deeper into you blog. I think (sadly)there is quite a need for this info out there. ((hugs))

I went to BYU- Provo,but my sister is living in HI while my BIL works at BYU-H ;0)

Em said...

I am so sorry for your losses!
{{{hugs}}}

Thanks for stopping by my blog. You mentioned we are the same religion; do you also live in Utah?

Anonymous said...

Good luck. We're starting injectables too...oy.